Long nights or parties at loud bass driven venues lead me to find ecstasy, it’s know as MDMA, we called it simply “E.” I wanted to be a musician very badly, and would have done almost anything to make it big. I feel as if a lot of people can relate to that, the desire for success in whatever it is you are passionate about. One thing about being a musician is that you need creativity to write new songs. Sometimes that creativity, is found in the bottom of an empty liquor bottle, or a half smoked bag of grass. I was not the first musician to find my muse through drugs, and certainly won’t be the last. My real passion in music, I played house music, a type of electronic dance music. Over time the same audience that loved house music, wanted some more bass driven, and out of that desire dub step was born as a more bass heavy drum beat driven version of house music. I found my calling, the only thing about the new genre of music is that it is really only played in rave clubs, where drugs are taken, and people dance all night in strange costumes. Struggling with my own creativity in such a tightly wound scene, led to my drug use, and eventually to ecstasy treatment.
Wait, let’s back up a bit. It was not that fast, no cause and effect type thing like that. I need to clarify by saying that when I started using ecstasy it was for the music, for inspiration. I eventually craved the drug , and that feeling from being at those clubs. The genre of dubstep is really over saturated with too many recording artists producing new songs at a seemingly nightly rate. I took drugs to keep my creativity in pace with the industry norm. Too much of a good thing, ends up being a bad thing, I took too much. An overdose led me to an ecstasy treatment center instead of a regular hospital. A treatment center designed to help heal a person from drug addiction.
Safely recovered (18 months sober) I can safely say I hate the sound of dub step now, and most definitely the memories of the rave clubs. I found a new muse through sobriety and none of this would have happened if I had not ended up going to ecstasy treatment.